Not a Rabbit

A solemn night in, wondering why I have to be so adrift in the world. Why nothing stable hangs around long enough for me to hold on to it. I’m always one step forward and three steps back. Why? Tonight a friend reached out to me for that same thing, a similar need and a similar story, and suddenly… I have worth. I am worthy. And yet… still adrift. Why?

This hasn’t turned into a book review blog. I’m still just a hot mess trying to make a connection with the outside world while developing my craft. I’ve been posting a lot of reviews because I’m reading a lot to get a grasp of ‘good writing’, and writing reviews in order to practice the process and sharpen my critical mind. This, of course, is to help me develop my first novel (which I’m five chapters into). I’m already working on my next few zines, too, so don’t think I’m just sitting around looking for ways to bore you.

But thank you for reading the reviews. Both of you.

Tonight (Wednesday) I’ll be discussing the queerness of Mean Girls with Phoebe from Here We Queer and Lysa from The Russo Test. Should be… interesting. On Saturday I’ll be selling zines with some pals at Laneways, which I don’t expect to be any more successful than last year. Then Sunday is 2019’s first Wendybird event. We have some beautiful new volunteers, so I’m looking forward to welcoming our latest Wendybird family members.

And this time next week I’ll be in Melbourne for Sticky Institute‘s Festival of the Photocopier (FotP). Yesterday I discovered I could no longer afford this trip, but since I can’t refund anything I’m going anyway. I’ll be hanging out with Katherine Back from Concrete Queers on the 7th for our Queer Pals – (un)socialites event. Then tabling at FotP on the 9th before co-hosting Queer Pals – ALGA Zine Tour with Nick Henderson from the Australian Lesbian and Gay Archives on the 10th. Nick says he’s had a ton of new contributions in the last year with QueerZinefest at Midsumma and Gay Stuff Markets at Hares and Hyenas, so I’m keen af to throw myself into it.

And that’s a wrap! I feel like shit, but I hope you’re swell. Stay tuned as I document my Melbourne adventures in a series I’m calling ‘Six Nights in Brunswick’. I’m hoping to catch up with a ton of people I love to write about, so here’s hoping I don’t die the second I get down there (please clear my search history if I do).

Until next time, here’s a few gems from my tabs to keep you keen:
Still Here, Still Queer: The Rise (and Rise) of LGBTQ Zine Culture
– Adam Maidment
Inside the “Phallus Palace,” Charles Leslie’s Trove of Queer Art
– Julia Wolkoff
How an Underground Queer Zine Became the Best Blog in Opera
– Joshua Barone
How Zine Libraries Are Highlighting Marginalized Voices
– Rosie Knight

  One thought on “Not a Rabbit

  1. January 30, 2019 at 6:12 am

    Always feels weird to press ‘like’ when someone tells you they don’t feel too well…Hope you’ll feel better soon
    Anyway, the blog looks quite good, and who says writing always has to turn into what you planned for it…
    I mostly started blogging to learn a bit about wordpress to use in future jobs, then I headed into social services job-wise and got buried in lawbooks, but I picked blogging up again during pregnancy leave (which for me, turned out strangely relaxing, which was quite a nice surprise) and I kept it up until I got the idea for my fiction series.
    I have then thought that it would be nice to keep a journal, mostly for myself, about everything I bump into while planning and working on the series, but lack of time made that happen on twitter mostly….
    Nowadays I mostly use the blog to write in my own voice for a change. None of my characters sound like me (which is good, they’d never stop talking).
    Do you have writing projects for the future that you’re researching for specifically? Any fiction, or do you mostly prefer non-fiction?

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    • January 29, 2019 at 9:52 pm

      If you want a real challenge, try using WordPress on your phone. Oof. Was trying to figure out how to reply or message for an hour last night before I went back to bed.

      And I’m working on a novel, yes. I’m trying to figure out how to expand things without making it boring. I’m used to saying as much as I can with as few words as possible.

      I’m getting there.

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      • January 29, 2019 at 10:00 pm

        I usually edit out lots, so I do the reverse 😀.

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        • January 29, 2019 at 10:01 pm

          Ha! Oh no. Your books must start as tomes.


          • January 29, 2019 at 10:08 pm

            My first drafts for chapters are usually lot’s of dialogue which I cut down, and lots of description that needs to be added. Which hopefully leads to something semi-balanced, but yeah…. much of work yet to be done. What’s your novel about?


          • January 31, 2019 at 11:36 am

            Well… without giving too much away, it’s about a gay man who returns to his foster home after a failed suicide attempt in order to discover the routes of his trauma. It’s also m/m romance because, let’s face it, I need something to make it easier to sell.


          • January 31, 2019 at 12:13 pm

            But I think that’s a good writing strategy. I’m finding it easier to build that skeleton and add the meat later. Any more hot tips? *grabs my pen*

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          • January 31, 2019 at 4:26 pm

            I guess I’m character-oriented and that fleshing out the dynamics between them keeps me invested in writing out the story. But I’m less of an plotter and lose time in that department (read:solving the mess lack of plotting creates).
            What do you like to work on best?

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          • January 31, 2019 at 8:40 pm

            Not sure. I think I obsess with plotting too much. My lecturers have made me paranoid about inconsistencies.


          • January 31, 2019 at 9:16 pm

            Right now I am working on a chapter in a new setting and since I publish my chapters I’m a bit stuck on the idea that I should really nail the setting. But that’s, in essence, not true. I can always rework the chapter later. I have for others as well. Up till now, I have only once had to edit a bit of plot. When you read much, intrinsic plotting can be so overwhelming…but one of my favourite wattpad writers has very simple straightforward plots and I keep being hooked on all her work since it just makes me feel good. So I have learned to let plotting go a bit…

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          • January 31, 2019 at 9:33 pm

            I’ll give it a go. It would help fill the novel to let the plot go.

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